Warm Gold

by Purrbot

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"Warm Gold" is the aptly titled fifth album from Portland, Oregon based anti-folkster Purrbot (aka Nathan Wade Carter). Picking up where 2009’s "A Kind of Giving" left off, Carter tells the story of a young man finding his way in the world, letting go of the past, embracing love, the future and all the heartbreak and joys that come between.

Carter expands his palette by taking on the role of producer/engineer and provides the entirety of the vocal work and instrumentation. "Warm Gold" is wholly Carter’s creation. His time, dedication and attention to detail more than pay off. This is easily Purrbot’s richest and most eclectic album to date.

(N. Chaplin)


released February 28, 2011

Written, Produced & Performed by Nathan Wade Carter

Instruments: Voices, Keyboards, Synths, Banjo, Ukulele, Guitar, Drums, Glockenspiel, Violin.

"The Sleepy Creatures" is based on "Carmine & Darnell & The Sleepy Creatures" (copyright 2004) by James McShane (jamesmcshane.com)

Cover Photo by Sara Nyquist

Design & Lettering by Nathan Wade Carter

Thank You: Patrick, N. Chaplin, Sara Nyquist, Joel Kraft, Leah Wilmoth, Rachel Phariss, Molly Madden, Jill Dieser, Kim Wade, James McShane, Christopher Merkel, Shelby Sifers, Tony Presley, Sara June Woods.

Copyright 2011 Nathan Wade Carter


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Purrbot Portland

Nathan Wade Carter (he/him) is a queer, grey-a, non-binary poet, musician, & artist living in Portland, Oregon. His chapbook is ROYGBIV (Ursus Americanus Press 2017). His poetry can be found in Hobart, Fugue, Gramma Poetry, Poor Claudia, The Fem, & others. He is the editor and founder of SUSAN / The Journal. He writes & performs songs under the name Purrbot. ... more

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Track Name: Underwater Hotel

Let's build that road
Across the ocean
To the Faeroe Islands
We will watch
The annual beaching of whales
Water red
President delegating each piece
To each peaceful place
We will stay at the underwater hotel
Learn the language of the merfolk
We will!
Track Name: Share the Good

I will shut up
In my room
With the husk of a giant ladybug
Heavily spotted and dark red
In my palm it will know
How long I'll live
Tell me when this sun set
I will collect them
A warm rustle of elytra
A stretch and a yawn
Feel free to go
Or stay.

I will pull back
You, bored, change the channel
Ratings down,
I will become snow
Snow. Snow!

I will zip it and go home
Dismiss passion no more
No more! No more! No more!

Don't hold back your love!
Don't forget what's there!
Don't forget to offer your hand!
Don't forget to share the good!
Share the good!
Track Name: The Sleepy Creatures

Carmine, we have a problem
The sleepy creatures are multiplying!

Darnell, our little girl!
Snuggle bunny nuzzling
Do you like your new collar sweetie?

Carmine, I'm tired of it
There are thousands!
Thousands of them!
Would you like to take a sleepy creature home?
Never really awake...

Darnell, I miss that sleeper
We couldn't keep her
She sleeps between us,
Keeps us warm!
Track Name: The God of Pauses, Breaths & Rests

Dear god of pauses, breaths and rests,
I have a wish
I need your best
My bouncing back is less and less

So this
Is the unceremonious end...?
I don't know what to say
But "It's hard" and "I'm sorry
I'm crazy
I'm trying..."

So this is the big bang
New beginning
I am ready and raring
Pawing at the air
What if no one's there or near?
What if I'm too sad to move
Or woo you?
What if there's no room,
No movement,
No break,
No rescue or revelation?

Sit with it
Sit with the uncomfort
The no answer
The impatience
Watch and learn

Dear god of pauses, breaths and rests
I have a wish
I need your best
My bouncing back is less and less
Track Name: Heavy Heart

I never dreamed
Your bones
In some plastic bag
It's been six years since
You left while you slept
I never dreamed
I would only see you
In my heart
In my head

I drew stars on your hands
And a star where you stand

Now it's drugs to sleep
And drugs to wake
Drugs to socially lubricate
No circadian rhythm left
To speak of

And now
All your winter gear is old and thin
And layers aren't cutting it
And the wind is cutting in
And your cut is not making ends meet

Heavy heart
Won't stop stalling out
Heavy heart won't stop
Track Name: Too Cold To Hold

I regret
Being so shy and soft-spoken
And where it did not get me
I regret to say:
I have plateaued
I cannot stay
There is further yet to go
It is safe to say
My fair face
Has seen it's share
Has seen enough

I regret being so hesitant
To do anything of consequence
I regret what time was spent
Propped on the fence
Inactive and apathetic
I regret not telling you earlier
While you were still here
And now
It's electronic love letters
Too cold to hold

I regret not remembering the good
Not documenting as extensively
The pleasure, the laughter, the humor,
The getting along

I regret to say:
I have plateaued
I cannot stay
There is further yet to go
Track Name: My Mess

My voice
My fire
My light
My eyes
Foggy, blind
Distorted, rose
Am I making things worse for myself?
Am I being ungrateful?
I am so grateful!

Give yourself a break
A vacation from hating yourself

My rules, so rigid
My love
My trust
Don't be so shy
Don't fall back so soon
My breath
My mess
My haste, impatience

Give yourself a break
A vacation from hating yourself
Track Name: A Model For All Things

I am hot from walking
You are out of town
We are chomping at the bit
Things are moving fast
But not too fast

We are sleeping in
We have always lived in the now
You and I

This is true love
This is commitment
Let this be a model for all things romantic

What if I say I want to spend my life with you?

This is true love
This is commitment
Let this be a model for all things romantic
Track Name: So Close It Glows

You will take me
Out to sea
But will you follow me to the Yukon
When we are old men?

You surprised me
No easy feat
Taking me out to sea
Past the golden gate
Holding hands to balance
There were islands
And sea lions
And whales who tried land
And went back to water

I won't forget
The best date ever
I'll come back for seconds

I can hear a dull roar
My ear to the ground
A hum coming
A train

I can't tell you
I can tell the future
And in it
There is a place we go
That is so close it glows

How did you know?
Track Name: Go Deaf, Wear White

Leaf-like, I crunch me with you
Using you like a sharp tool
Even the men in my dreams
Are excusing themselves politely
And you know what?
Save it
I don't care

It's jealousy,
It's embarrassing
I should cut down on the drinking
On the number of foots in mouths
In fact, cut talking all together
Go deaf
And wear white
All white

Leaf-like, I check out
I cannot be here for this branch detaching
Taxed and running on E
There is no time for anything I love
I am

I forget I am a wonder
Track Name: Thanksgiving Plague

Look at us
Such mistrust
Quarantined and holed away
Is it lack of caring?
Is it lack of wanting to venture out?
Is it better off just staying where you are?
Is there nothing to find?
Will I just get hurt?

Will I burn out?
Grime and gristle
Carbon, black, stuck to the pan
Will you burn out on me?
Tired of listening
Is arm's length far enough?
Have you had enough?

Is this death catching?
Does it come in threes?
Who will be next?
Who will be left after this plague?

It's Thanksgiving but we're mourning
Track Name: Warm Gold

You don't scare me
And I don't scare you
Your heart pours warm gold down my throat
You are mirror
Then a burst of light
When two streams combine
We have struck gold in this dark mine

I am rich! I am happy!
I am rich! I am fed!

I have a bottomless carpet bag
Of things to give
Intangible and tangible
You have slowed time
Sped up this heart
Untied knots
Ironed worry
At ease, at peace!

You picked me ripe amid marigold and yew
You sure showed me

I am rich! I am happy!
I am rich! I am fed!
Track Name: Go West

Go west
Pan for gold
If there's any left
If the know-how hasn't died out

Get wet
Throw yourself in
Hot sex
At the hotsprings
You got me wet
All bets were on
But I lost
How could i forget
But I digress...

Go west
Pan for gold
If there's any left
If the know-how holds out

Your v-neck
Opened into your chest
And through your
Soft forest
I dove into the rest of you
I dove into the best of you

Go west
Pan for gold
If there's any left
If the know-how hasn't died out

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